I received a DM yesterday asking me if everything was alright because I had been quiet. Unlike many of my Twitter ‘tribe’, my husband’s affair didn’t taint any major dates for me. However, this time of the year, April-June, gets my dander up as that is the time frame when their ‘friendship’ kicked up and then took the physical turn in June. No one date is a trigger, I just find myself in an ornery frame of mind for these few months.
While I go on Twitter briefly, liking and even commenting on some posts, seeing the lingering hurt and also the positive and ‘philosophical’ posts, bring out a bit of my angry and sarcastic side. This makes it prime time for me to poke the bear. As a matter of fact, I look at my memories from Facebook and see the pattern of the last two years where I posted some pretty nasty (but hilarious) digs at that skank.
For the past couple of years at this time, I threw myself into home projects and yard work. It keeps my mind from ruminating about the affair. As such, my city yard has become quite the ‘staycation’ destination. Financially, we have not been able to keep renting the beach house for the past few years. But even so, living in the city hasn’t been all that bad, especially as the boys are older and have been busy with other interests.
In order to cope with my pissy mood, I have a number of projects I’ve either completed or been working on. For example, last year I built a raised bed vegetable garden as well as a bar on our deck. I built a paver patio with a fire pit and spray painted a set of chairs that had been severely neglected for years.
I also cook a lot and had recently been sending over food to my mother-in-law at my husband’s request. Though we don’t talk, she is elderly with major health and depression issues and the kids appreciate me sending over some weekly meals. My kids also eat like horses, so I actually spend a ton of time cooking daily.
With the end of the school year approaching, we have attended two awards ceremonies in which my son received two pretty prestigious awards.
This year, I took a neglected bed of flowers with a crappy edging and built a stone raised bed. I put in another vegetable garden there and as a matter of fact, it’s doings amazingly well. I made some improvements to the bar and I just finished planted my gardens but for a couple of packets of seeds that I planned to put in this weekend. Small fish pond was cleaned out and I added some fish to it.
It is a beautiful Sunday. I planned on putting in the last of the garden and planting the front two window boxes. I have a small piece of decorative fence to finish up.
I had not planned on writing today…BUT…
Last night, my husband took me out for ice cream. As I walked back to the car, I twisted my foot. I did ice it last night but when I woke up this morning, I couldn’t walk on it at all. Hopefully it was because it was stiff as it isn’t really too swollen or black and blue. So I am sitting on the deck, forced relaxation, ice on the foot, writing this post.
So while overall things are going relatively well with my husband outside of my pissyness, my projects are temporarily on hold. A friend is dropping of a pair of crutches and a boot so there is wine in my future.
Ornery, foot up, ice packs… But there’s always wine!